love doesn't lie

You thought about him, the moment he neared you
You tried to look through his eyes
You tried to make him know the time isn't set
You nearly fell for his plea
But then,he feels you're wicked & subsiding

You made a sacrificial plan to rest him in your heart
Not minding how it'd make you slide
You made maps to visit him
You promised to be his not for awhile
But then, his instinct was to make a tool of you.

You prayed for him in the indoors with your brittle heart,
Believing he'd have a novel chance and change
You fought even with your battled emotions
You made few persons know you were with him
But then, all he wanted was to be a sexual sadist

Now you are doubting every course of your action
Ensuring you weren't under a spell
You allowed him partially had his way
You realised it and went away
With a sudden break down right at the threshold.
But then, he never felt remorseful for his desperation

Now you rue the very first day you met him
You know you'd've nipped your feelings in the bud
You walk with shame,distortion and nix
And now, you pray never to see him again
But then, he is careless and has moved on with his life...

You loved him! Yes and that you know
You felt envious at the glimpse of other lovers
You tried to subdue your emotion
You opt to stop your academics then breath last
But then, he called only to ask for what was left.

You wish to find back that peace
You've struggled to stay with yourself,
Licking your wounds inflicted by him
Awaiting the moment you'd be in that sincere arms
Only then would you assert, love does not hurt!